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DA/SPN Fic: The Reluctant Big Brother

Title: "The Reluctant Big Brother"
Author: lori_leaf
Betas: nocturnal08 and kara_winchester
Rating: PG (mild swearing)
Summary: Sam develops Middle Child issues.
Author's Notes: This is part of my Fox 'Verse. It works as a stand-alone story. The only thing you need to know is this is a crossover between Dark Angel and Supernatural. I've messed with both timelines. It's 2007, Dean is 19, Sam is 15. John found Alec in a school during an undercover mission. Alec is 10 years old. He's been living with the Winchesters at Bobby's house for a few weeks.

Sam Winchester did not want to be anyone's big brother. For one thing, the new kid was constantly snooping around. Alec had no concept of personal space, or privacy. When Sam caught him rummaging through Sam’s duffel, the brat didn't even have the decency to look guilty. He was looking for socks he said. Sure. Like Sam's socks would even fit the runt.

One of the worst things about their little tag along was the way Alec would perch somewhere high in the room and stare down at Sam, like prey. The freak always managed to find some impossible way to gain a higher altitude. One of his favorite places in the kitchen was sitting on top of the fridge. Everyone else seemed to find this cute. Sam thought Alec was like a pit bull. It might look cute, but it’s liable to bite your hand off one day. It was a mistake to think of Alec as anything but feral.

And another thing, the kid was freaky. Alec never seemed to sleep. Sure he'd bunk down like a real boy at night, but he was never there in the morning. Sam had woken up a few times in the middle of the night and Alec was gone. Sam didn't even want to guess at where the kid disappeared to. When he warned his Dad about Alec's disappearing act, Dad just shrugged and said so long as he was quiet and didn’t leave the house, it didn’t bother him if he didn’t stay in bed. Bullshit. If Sam dared to wander around at all hours of the morning, his Dad would have nailed his ass to the bed. Alec got away with murder when it came to John Winchester.

When Alec ate Sam's entire candy stash, John just shook his head. Alec stole the book Sam was reading and then gleefully told him the ending. John didn't care. Alec broke the bed by jumping on it. John seemed freakin' happy the kid was in a good mood. It wasn't fair!

He also strongly suspected that the kid was a klepto. Little things kept showing up in Sam's duffel. He'd find a pack of cards, an earring, some Canadian coins... just little trinkets. Sam wondered if Alec put them there because the runt was setting him up to take a fall, or because he figured Sam was too dumb to realize who was doing it. Sam didn't like either option. A few days ago Sam mentioned that he wanted the sequel to the book he was reading, but Dad said no. A few days later he found the book in his bag. Sam definitely thought Alec was trying to get him in trouble. He'd had to read the book in the bathroom, for god's sake! If Dad caught him with it, things would have gotten ugly.

The runt was already the reason Sam had extra training. Alec did all these little things to annoy Sam and when Sam told him to cut it out, Dad would get pissed. Suddenly, it'd be another epic battle between him and Dad. It felt like Sam could never win these days. Sam had turned bright red when Dad offered to beat his ass for him if he didn't watch his attitude. Alec just tilted his head curiously from his perch on top of the fridge. The kid was totally setting him up.

And it wasn't like having an extra Winchester around kept Dad from being an ass to the kid who used to be his youngest child. He was completely unreasonable and never listened to a word Sam said! It's not Sam’s fault that he's the only one in this family with the balls to stand up to the old man. God knows Dean'll never stick up for himself. But instead of being grateful, Dean acts like it's Sam's fault Dad's pissed. And all Alec does is watch and make snide little comments when no one else is around. The kid might fool everyone else, but Sam wasn't buying his lost little kid act.

And then there was Dean.

Dean was supposed to be his biggest defender. Sure, they fought a lot. Lots of brothers fight. But when push came to shove, Sam knew Dean had his back... until Alec. Nowadays, Dean kept telling Sam to ease up on the new kid, saying he was younger than them, that he wasn't used to being around families. He was probably just trying to be friendly. Sam should give him hugs and kisses and draw little hearts around his precious little head. Okay, so maybe Sam was exaggerating a little bit. But only a very little bit.

Sometimes when the kid got that line in the middle of his eyebrows that meant he was tired, Dean would force the kid to nap with him. It shouldn't bother Sam to see his big brother with a little kid tucked against his side, and a protective arm slung across the kid's shoulders. It’s not like Sam was jealous or anything, but Dean was his big brother, not Alec's. Alec was just a stray that no one had the heart to boot out.

Sam had nightmares where he was surrounded by an army of Deans and he was the only Sam. In his dreams, his dad would praise the Deans. He'd point out how wonderful they all were. They were all different ages, too: grown up Deans, teenage Deans, little kid Deans, toddler Deans... Dad loved them all. He'd toss a baby Dean into the air and laugh. Dad would tell Sam how well-behaved the infant was, and then mention how Sam used to scream all the time. Sam was this gangly awkward giant surrounded by perfectly formed Deans. He would suffocate in the sea of them. One little spot of Sam in an overwhelming ocean of Dean. He hated those dreams.

Waking up from those nightmares, he'd glance over at Dean and hate him a little. Dean was always that good little soldier who Dad loved so much. Even Alec liked him better. Not that Sam cared what Alec thought.

Sometimes Sam felt like he was in this thick fog. He knew he shouldn't get so mad, but the fog made it hard to think and really easy to feel. He hated when Alec would touch his stuff. Sam didn't really have too many things that were just his. He had to share everything. So when the kid messed with Sam's stuff, it made him see red. And then his Dad was just so nice to the kid! He would ruffle his hair, or sling him over a shoulder. Sam knew that it was just because Alec was little enough to pick up, but it didn't mean he had to like it. It wasn't his fault he had grown awkwardly tall. And it wasn't fair that Dean would call him all the names he used to call Sam. All of the sudden, Alec was "short stack," and "little dude"... all Sam got to be was Sammy and he hated that name.

He knew he was being petty. He knew he should be nice to this kid who had a shitty childhood and was scared of everything but thought he could hide it. Sam would watch Alec fight off sleep. The kid seemed to dread it and would do anything to avoid falling asleep.It was almost enough to make Sam feel sorry for him, but in Sam's fog of mine he'd get mad instead.

Sam hated when Alec would look at him with those lost puppy eyes and ask his advice on dumb things like making waitresses like you, or the polite thing to say when someone keeps patting your head and you don't want them to. The dumb kid would curl up next to him when they watched TV sometimes. Alec would fold himself into an impossibly tight ball and put his head on Sam's knee and his feet pressed against Dean's thigh. The kid probably thought it made him seem vulnerable and sweet... but he was totally wrong. Sam wasn't at all swayed by his act. Even if he did look like he was six years old all curled up like that. It made Sam feel annoying protective urges. It was probably just gas pains. There was no way Sam cared about Alec Not-Really-A-Winchester.

Okay, so maybe Sam threatened to break the legs of the older boy who told Alec he might as well wear a dress because no one would believe a pretty little thing like him actually had a penis. Alec didn't seem to be offended by the affront to his masculinity, but Sam still grabbed the older boy by the shirt and made him so nervous that he probably peed his pants a little. But that didn’t mean Sam liked Alec.

And no matter what everyone else said, it was not endearing when the kid would get super excited and fling his arms around Sam's waist. Sam made sure he didn't grin back when Alec hugged him like he was the coolest person in the world. Well, sometimes Sam just pretended to grin because he felt sorry for the kid. Because Alec was still pretty messed up. The kid had nightmares that freaked Sam out. He would tense up, and toss and turn. Sometimes Sam could hear him beg in his sleep. Scary things like I'm a good soldier and please, don’t hurt me. The kid would wake up all at once and look around the room like a scared rabbit. And sure, Sam maybe let the kid crawl into bed with him after a nightmare like that. And maybe he felt a small amount of pride that Alec picked him, not Dean, or Dad, to curl up next to. The kid shook like a leaf and his eyes were watery, but he insisted he didn't remember what he dreamed about.

Sam remembered how Dean use to settle him down after a nightmare when he was little. He carded his fingers through the kid’s hair until Alec fell asleep again. That didn't mean he liked being a big brother. Especially since Dean just gave him a knowing look from across the room. Whatever. Just because Dean had fallen under the kid's spell, didn’t mean Sam had.

Samuel Winchester didn't want to be anybody's big brother. But it looked like he was stuck with Alec. That didn't mean he had to like it. Looking down at the little kid who was sprawled out half on top of him, trusted Sam to keep the nightmares away, Sam couldn't quite hate the boy. Even if Alec did look like a girl. Still, that dipshit from across the street had better watch his mouth or Sam would break his legs. The only people allowed to call Alec a girl were Sam and Dean. And Dean had better stop smiling at Sam from his bed like the Winchesters were suddenly a Hallmark family. Sam still didn't trust the little shit, and figured he was a feral kitten who'd bite and scratch just because he didn't know any better. He was pretty cute, though. And Sam had always wanted a pet.

Shit, the little bastard had won him over.

The next story in this series - "Fifteen Winchester Family Secrets


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Aug. 10th, 2008 01:33 pm (UTC)
Aww!!!! I want more Alec and Sam bonding!!!
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:43 pm (UTC)
*g* I'll see what I can do. I'm sure there'll be more bonding in future one-shots. Thanks for the feedback!
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Aug. 10th, 2008 06:44 pm (UTC)
It's weird for Sam to picture himself as a big brother too. Thats half the reason it's a difficult adjustment. He's figuring it out though. *g* Thanks for the feedback Vince!
Aug. 10th, 2008 04:11 pm (UTC)
Awwwww! *wipes tear*

I do feel badly for Sam. All the crap he's had to live through, and now he has to be the middle child, too? I think John and Dean, especially Dean, have to remember to give Sam his due share of lovin', too. *snuggles Sammy*
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:46 pm (UTC)
Sam loves the opportunity to wallow in some teenage angst. Plus he's got all those logic clogging hormones going on at the moment. Like most older siblings he'll get used to it, it's just most of us go through this at 2 or 3, and poor Sam's 15. The other Winchesters won't forget Sam even though Sam might feel neglected right now. Thanks for the feedback hon!
Aug. 10th, 2008 04:37 pm (UTC)
Awww! Alec's getting under Sam's skin! So cute the way Sam tries to fight his growing affection for his new baby brother. And how ironic that all the things Sam is feeling about Alec, were probably similar to some of the things Dean felt toward Sam growing up. Just too cute! And yes, you need to write more of this, please and thanx!
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:48 pm (UTC)
A lot of older siblings go through these growing pains of MINE MINE MINE. Sam's just old enough to realize that he's being a bit of a jerk, yet not old enough to actually want to change his behavior. (Plus it's HARD suddenly having a little brother. He feels like his place has been usurped.) *g* Thanks for letting me know you enjoyed it. I'll work on writing more.
Aug. 10th, 2008 05:14 pm (UTC)
I liked how Sam came to a realization at the end of this that it wasn't so bad being a big brother, and that Alec had won him over. Nice job!
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:49 pm (UTC)
Thanks! And Sam couldn't resist Alec for long. Alec's still like a kicked puppy in many ways and we all know Sam loves puppies. *g*
Aug. 10th, 2008 05:31 pm (UTC)
I love Sam's thoughts here. Perfect in their anger, the injustice of it all, the littlest Winchester who is no longer the baby. Still he has fallen for the boy.

I love how Alec choses Sam to curl up to after a nightmare. Makes me want to cuddle them both.
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:52 pm (UTC)
It's hard being a teenager. Hormones make you crazy and then you magically get a ten year old little brother on top of it. Of course Sam's gonna be a little cranky. And with Alec actively trying to make Sam like him, Sam didn't have a chance. *g* Thanks for the feedback!
Aug. 10th, 2008 05:42 pm (UTC)
Loved it! I loved Alec perching up on top of the fridge like a cat. I love seeing all of this through your unreliable narrator Sam. I really love how Alec keeps giving Sam stuff and it just creeps Sam out.

Haha, Sammy loves the little guy no matter how much he doesn't want to! So good!
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:54 pm (UTC)
I couldn't give Alec the Space Needle, so he had to make due with the fridge. *g* And Sam, an unrealiable narrator? Never! *lol* Yeah, he was fun to write with all of his insisting that Alec was the spawn of the devil and not to be trusted.

Alec is actively trying to make Sam like him, so he tries bribes. Obviously this doesn't quite work. But Alec doesn't understand that. He's given Sam pretty things and useful things! How can Sam still not trust him?

Thanks for the feedback and for reading my entire 'verse in a day. *g*
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Aug. 10th, 2008 05:53 pm (UTC)
Oh geez, thought of something else that was done really well and I wanted to comment on. I loved the issues that Sam has with the prospect of more Deans being around. I think Sammy has always had those issues of feeling like the outsider in his family. Now it's much much worse with two siblings who are alike and he's the odd man out--and the middle child!
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:55 pm (UTC)
Yeah, Sam has always assumed Dean was Dad's favorite (and Dean assumed Sam was Dads), so having MORE Deans is just asking for angst. It just emphasizes how different Sam is from his brothers and Sam doesn't like it.
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Aug. 10th, 2008 06:33 pm (UTC)
Aww! I gotta say, I totally feel for Sam here - and I'm glad he's coming around to Alec.
Aug. 10th, 2008 06:56 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon! Alec is starting to grow on him, and since Alec is actively trying to make Sam like him, it's impossible to hold out for long.
Aug. 10th, 2008 09:20 pm (UTC)
hee. this is awesome! good job.
Aug. 11th, 2008 08:46 pm (UTC)
Thanks hon! Thank YOU for betaing. Sorry I was so lame and took freakin' forever to post this.
Aug. 11th, 2008 12:06 am (UTC)
OMG that was sooooo adorable! I was SO excited to see you'd written more in this 'verse - I absolutely love it!

This was filled with great stuff - Sam getting protective urges and trying to write them off as "gas pains" had me LMAO. He's trying to hate Alec but he just can't (Sam's a good kid, not a jerk! Just going through a little sibling rivalry.) Alec leaving Sam trinkets and a book in his bag was too freakin' cute - although I wanted to shake Sam cuz Alec's obviously trying to win him over. I just wanna squish Alec and cuddle him! Sam would hate me for saying that LOL. I also really loved Alec's nightmares and Sam letting him sleep with him after he's had one - he's TOTALLY pulling a Dean there, especially when he uses a technique that Dean used on him to get him to fall back asleep after a nightmare. Dean's such a good role model for showing Sam how to be an awesome big brother! :-D

Really, really wonderful. I can't wait for more!!
Aug. 11th, 2008 08:48 pm (UTC)
Alec is definitely trying to win Sam over. He's trying so hard! And I agree, Sam's not a jerk, he's just working through some things and sometimes that doesn't make him act like Mr. Sunshine and Happiness. Sam's always wanted "normal" and having a genetically enhanced super soldier as a little brother is not normal. Not to mention it stirs up all sorts of territory issues that Sam probably never realized he HAD until suddenly someone is in his space all the time.

I'm working on more right now! *g* Thanks for the feedback.
Aug. 11th, 2008 03:35 am (UTC)
LOL. I felt terrible for Sam, because now he thinks John has two sons he prefers to him, but the way Alec's winning him over in spite of all that is pretty funny. I'm so glad you wrote another piece! :)
Aug. 11th, 2008 08:50 pm (UTC)
He's definitely got some sibling issues. But who DOESN'T have sibling issues? He'll figure it out. He's a bright boy. *g* Thanks for the feedback. I'm trying to not leave you guys hanging for so long between stories.
Aug. 11th, 2008 04:24 am (UTC)
Yay, you posted it! I'm so tired from today that I'm about to pass out, but I promise I'll read it tomorrow!
Aug. 11th, 2008 08:50 pm (UTC)
Thanks again for betaing and I'm sorry it took so long for me to post this! I'm incredibly lame. I'll try not to be so lame in the future.
Aug. 11th, 2008 03:56 pm (UTC)
Very, very nice :) The reorganization did wonders for this fic, and I absolutely love Sam's POV. I can't wait to see more from this series, and you know I'm willing to beta! Great job, sweetie!
Aug. 11th, 2008 08:51 pm (UTC)
I was reorganizing stuff right up til the last minute. This probably had a good solid four re-drafts before I made the pieces fit how I wanted them to. That's what I get for writing in a different style then usual. *g* Thanks, hon!
Aug. 11th, 2008 10:24 pm (UTC)
Alec would perch somewhere high in the room and stare down at Sam, like prey
I loved this image. I can totally picture it. Poor Sam, heh!
Also loved Sam's nightmare about being surrounded by Dean's. (sounds like heaven to me).
Lots of issues for Sam to work through, but it sounds like Alec is getting to him. Loved it. Thanks.
Aug. 11th, 2008 10:40 pm (UTC)
Well I couldn't give him the Space Needle from Dark Angel, so he got Bobby's fridge instead. Sam might thing Alec is doing it merely to annoy him, but really its just a way Alec feels safe. Thanks for the feedback. *g*
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