Anyone ever get the impulse to randomly break out into dance on the subway? Every once in awhile while I have my ipod in and everyone is so obviously bored I want to jump up and recreate a Gap commercial. In my head this is awesome. In actuality it would proably get me arrested.

In other news it's 11:30pm and I'm WIDE AWAKE! I don't even know! I woke up at 6am to do a catering gig and I've been running around all day and then I came home, ate dinner, watched So You Think You Can Dance and now I'm AWAKE. It's like someone slipped me a coffee or something.

It's sort of hard to fall into a sleeping schedule at the moment since I have no stability. I've been able to find some work but it's always last minute type stuff where I never know if I'm gonna get called in at 2pm or if I have to wake up at 4:30am to get somewhere by 6am. Weirdness.

Someone also recorded a podcast of atimi's Hell's Antiques Are NOT Sex Toys. I've never listened to a podcast before. I don't really like books-on-tape because I so clearly hear the characters voices in my head. This podcasting thing is apparently very popular though! I can see why! It'd be very convienant on the subway to fill the time. It is sort of surreal though since I'm an actor and I'm used to saying other people's words so it's startling to hear someone else reading MY words. It's wacky! Anyway if you'd like to download the podcast and give her lots of awesome feedback, it can be found here.

Guess who has a fun new virus on their desktop? It's me! It's me!

Yep. I got infected by a trojan. I blame FF.net. I was happily googling h/c fic on delicious which was sending me to FF.net and then DEATH happened and now my poor computer needs comfort. *pets* Luckily I have a really cheap, tiny net book so I'm not utterly cut off from the net, just MOSTLY cut off from the net.

In other news, the job I applied for didn't work out. I said "I have no experience waitressing," I worked a shift for no pay, and then she was SURPRISED I had no experience waitressing and decided she wanted people with more experience. Um. I told you that when you interviewed me. You're not allowed to be surprised later. You should be impressed that I handled a very intense shift (even by her standards) and ONLY screwed up a few times. Oh well.

I do have some other possible work things lined up. Worst case senario I'll do a temp agency. I just really don't want to get stuck doing office work. I've done office work. It's a little soul sucking.

And that's my life for the past few months. Lots of craziness, work-finding, computer breaking, and fun moving... again. Oh stability, how I miss you.

*facepalm* My British friends, people from Texas absolutely, positively do not call their mother's "mum." They call their mom's "mom, momma, mama" or "ma." Never, ever "mum." I started reading an absolutely FABULOUS story the other day that was just wonderful... except Jensen kept saying "mum" and it drives me crazy. It takes me out of the story and I have to turn on my inner American spell-checker and I start reading things to myself with weird emphasises as I mentally fix things. "Jensen called his MOM before bed." "His MOM wore a pink dress." "Jensen missed his MOM." Blah.

I actually stopped reading a fic with a great summary because the second sentence was already full of "mums" and I just couldn't do it.

It's such a tiny thing! One little letter! Please, please, fix that. I bet you'd be irritated if Harry Potter missed his MOM. It's just jarring...

And that concludes my utterly random judgemental post of the day.

Apple cider is DELICIOUS. Especially when you have one of those trendy freezable cups that makes the alcohol extra cold. I had two tonight. I'm delightfully toasty. I wish I had discovered apple cider earlier. I think my European drinking experiance would have been a lot more enjoyable if I asked for more cider and less yucky beer.

SPN 5.02 has allowed me to forgive Supernatural for 5.01. I wasn't a fan of 5.01, but 5.02 was great.

M&Ms are also great. I thought you should know.

And despite rumours to the contrary, I still exist. Real life just continues to be busy. I promise, I will write again someday... just not today. Today was for drinking and ignoring work that needs to get done before tomorrow.

Maybe I'm just tired or something because I was seriously underwhelmed by both the Leverage season finale and the Supernatural season premiere. I WANT to be squeeing with everyone else but instead I'm just sort of disappointed. Where's my fun train? I want to get on!

ETA: There are spoilers for the Leverage finale and Supernatural premiere in the comments.

I really wish authors would ask around before writing a detailed story about a specialized skill. Nothing is more painful then reading about something you're trained in... wrong. If an author is going to talk about the groups of muscles used in a certain physical activity, just ask someone who DOES that activity what muscles it uses. If you've decided to write about a deaf character, please for the love of god either don't meticulously describe the signing, or do some research! Deaf people don't sign in exact English so if you're describing a deaf character using the sign "is", that tells me that you've found a sign language dictionary online but you haven't done any research beyond that. ASL has a completely different set of grammar rules than English. And if you're going to write a story about aspiring actors getting formal training in acting (and I'm not talking about high school drama, I'm talking about college level training and above) then do some research. Acting is a whole heck of a lot more than memorizing lines.

Oh and Americans don't call their mother's "mum."

Why yes, I AM catching up on some Big Bangs. Most of them I adore and some of them I have to stop reading because the story is great but the details are all wrong and the author has decided to describe things in detail that they did no research on. *facepalm*

Oh and there's a deaf Big Bang fic and that's not the one I'm refering to. That author actually did a good job with the language. I've just read so MANY bad ASL fics... I just can't resist a mute Dean. It's a cliche I'm hooked on. I'll also read de-aged Dean in a heartbeat. Oh cliches, why do I love you so?

On a different note, I'm only working full-time now guys! After months of working 13 or 14 hour days, I'm only working 8 hour days. It's not quite enough of a break to inspire writing but it is enough of a break that I'm reading fic again and feeling much better. *g* I also have weekends again! YAY!

I feel like a little engine chug, chug, chugging along. Someday I'll get an actual break. I've discovered the only way to consistantly work fourteen hour days is to simply take one task at a time and not worry about anything else. Just break down enormous obstacles into small little tasks. I appologize to the flist for not reading/commenting on fic lately and basically being awol. I'm also sorry for not writing anything original in the past few months. Unfortunately when working so many hours, it's impossible for me to sum up the energy to think of plots let alone WRITE anything.

The good news is that things are winding down a little and maybe in a month or so I'll have a two week break... maybe. That'd be awesome if I can pull it off. *g* I just wanted to let you guys know I still exist! I haven't fallen off the face of the planet or anything. *g*

Original characters occationally make me sad. Anytime I read a synopsis for a story and it features "Alec and his girlfriend Kelsey (an OC)" or "in this story Sam and Dean have a little sister named Emily! (Original character)" it makes me REALLY not want to read the story. I've definitely seen stories that look like they'd be right up my alley too... except for that darn original character. Sometimes I'll read the story just in case the original character ISN'T a Mary Sue... and then they ARE a Mary Sue, every freakin' time. They also tend to feature as heavily as the canon characters. *facepalm*

Of course sometimes there are FANTASTIC original characters. I can't find a link to some examples off the top of my head because I forget the titles and the authors. There was a great story with Dean and a girl named Lou who was textured and interesting and flawed and the story was still all about Dean. Another great story is a wip (I think) and it's Dean injured and Sam finding a connection with the nurse who is also flawed and interesting. I think rogue_clasique has a fic in her Drive 'verse with Dean and a hippy that was also great. Unfortunately for every amazing OC out there, there are fifteen billion Mary Sues and it makes me so afraid to read anything with the dreaded word "OC" in it. At least "OC" in the context of "Dean's little sister!" or "Dean's new girlfriend!"

In other news, I'm still alive. Just very, very busy.

Okay so I WAS working 13 hour days but now I wake up at 7:30. I'm at my first job by 9am. I work there til 6 when I immediately run to the theatre and begin pre-rehearsal rehearsals (basically all the "oh crap that sucked. Can we run that again before rehearsal tomorrow?" stuff). I get home at 11pm. I'm in bed, hopefully by midnight but it's more like 12:30 or 1am. Yeah... that's a 14 hour work day with hardly any breaks... um, apparently that extra hour makes all the difference in the world because I was feeling tired but okay and now I'm just freakin' tired. I need a day off! My next day off is Aug 22nd. AUGUST TWENTY SECOND. *le sigh* Okay fine. I can tighten boot straps til then.

Um, fic... I don't have time to READ fic right now, so I appologize in advance. The earliest you'll get any fic from me is August 22nd. And I'm sorry if you're posted something. I'm saving all the links to read at a later date. With this schedule I'm lucky if I can read one short thing a night so I'm sorry my flisters. I'm excited about all the fic you've posted. I'll read it in two months.

You know what's currently confusing me? The phrase "non-AU RPS." Um, it's real person slash... it is, by nature, alternate universe. Unless you are Jared or Jensen and you're writing your autobiography of your crazy love affair with your co-star... this is AU.

I also continue to amaze myself with how stupid I am over positions. I just don't like reading bottom!Sam or bottom!Jared. I keep seeing these epic stories with senarios I'd LOVE except that the positions are "wrong." (Yes they're not really wrong, they're just not what I prefer.) I find I can't enjoy those stories because my brain gets caught up in the tiniest stupidiest detail over who bottoms. WTF brain? The logic of my brain is Jared tops Jensen, Jeff tops everyone, Jensen might occationally switch, but he prefers bottoming... not because he's secretly a big girl but because he LIKES IT dammit. When the characters don't fit into those parameters I start to enjoy the story less... even if it's an awesome story. I don't get it.

In other news life continues to be insanely busy and I'm tired (and possibly cranky), so there won't be any new Fox 'verse for awhile. There just aren't enough hours in the day that aren't filled up by sleep or work. Sorry!

People who are tired:
Lori is tired.

Someday I'll stop working non-stop. Right now I wake up at 7am. I'm at work by 9am (but I've put in some planning beforehand, hence the early wake up.) I work til 6pm, then I have an hour break, then I work some place else til 10pm. Somehow I'm supposed to magically have time at night to memorize all of my lines and do all of my planning... yeah, there's totally not time. *hides*

Okay now I'm going to get off the internet again to memorize lines. What fun!

Title:"An Apple a Day" and Other Childhood Myths
Author: lori_leaf
Beta: achillies_eel
Rating: PG
Summary: Sam and Dean have the stomach flu. Alec has freckles. John's about to have a headache.

Author's Note: This is a future timestamp for my Fox 'verse. It was inspired by a prompt serena64 gave me and I proceeded to change all the details for. (Sorry Serena.) All that you need to know is the Winchesters have adopted Alec. Dean is 19, Sam is 15, and Alec is 10.

( Alec was perched on the queen sized bed, hovering between Sam and Dean. )

I've written a ficlet for the Fox 'verse. Would anyone like to beta for me? It's fairly short.

In other news, life continues to be insanely crazy but I'm TRYING to write more. I've also written some drabbles over at comment_fic and I'll probably repost them here (mostly so I have them saved some place convienant.) Oh and if anyone is lurking here wanting Dark Angel/Supernatural crossover fic, I'd like to recommend checking out scourgeofeurope's journal. She's writing an amazing series called Wellspring and she's much better about updating than I am. *g*

Okay so I wrote a ficlet on comment_fic today. It's tiny, but I haven't written anything in so long I figured I'd link it here anyway.

And then there's this meme stolen from the flist:
Name your 10 absolutely favorite couples (het/slash/canon/fanon) and ask people to see what trends they notice about your couples. Try to pick different fandoms:


It seemed entertaining, so I'm playing. *g*

Supernatural - Sam/Dean
RPS - J3 (extra Misha is optional, but appreciated)
Farscape - John/Chiana
Dark Angel - Alec/Joshua (I blame this utterly AWESOME fic I read. Of course I'll never be able to find the link again. Trust me, this pairing works in a non-creepy way.)
Battlestar Galactica - Kara/Lee
Greek mythology - Orpheus/Eurydice
Shakespeare (Much Ado...) - Kate/Benedict
Firefly - Zoe/Wash
Leverage - Eliot/Nate
X-Men (comics)- Remy/Logan

Edited to add: Warning, there may be spoilers for these shows in the comments.

And here's my ficlet which can be Fox verse or just preseries for the show. No knowledge of Fox verse is needed to read this:

( Dark Angel, Alec, his first time outside the training compound )

I saw Wolverine today and HATED who they got to play Gambit. Seriously, his eyes aren't right, his accent isn't right, and his lines were crappy. Color me disappointed. But what this DID do was remind me of how much I loved the Logan/Remy pairing years ago when I first got into the online X-Men fandom. Anyone know of any good links? I'll take movie or comic Logan, but only comic Remy because dammit Remy's supposed to be CAJUN not vaguely Southern, and he's supposed to have obviously mutant eyes not brown. Lame movie. Lame. Seriously, just get the boy some contact lenses and throw in a French words into his dialogue and a dialect coach and he'd be fine. It's just laziness to ignore those BIG details.

So Logan/Remy anyone? I saw some references to people writing de-aged Remy in comment_fic today, but I have no idea what days to even look for. Links? Anyone have links?

And while I'm asking for things, anyone have any prompts for the Fox verse? I actually have a little free time now but nothing is poking me demanding to be written. I'll gladly take nudges or requests for time stamps. No promises on actually WRITING these things, but hey, maybe it'll jump start something. *g* Danke!

*flails around awkwardly* My life is insanely busy and I thought I'd be less busy in a few days but I managed to forget other VERY IMPORTANT things that need to get done and now I'm realizing I won't be less busy until mid-May. God help me.

Here was today's schedule: I had a 12:30pm call for a 2pm show. We got done at around 4pm and I had two hours to run around and try and find an audition dress. I did NOT find an audition dress. Damn you current styles! Plus I need a grown up dress and my body is still stuck in the Juniors section. Do you know how hard it is to find grown up clothes in the juniors section? I returned to the theatre for my 6pm call. The show ended at 9:15 or so. I rehearsed from 9:20ish to 11pm. Tomorrow this all begins again.

My brain is going crazy trying to remember all the information I need to absorb. Any free time is spent trying to run errands. I need a day off dammit...